Thursday, February 28, 2013

The Written Word

It's amazing how often people under estimate the power of the written word, and I do mean written as opposed to typed or spoken/recorded. There's something much more intimate and freeing about something written down. There is power in words.

Durning my faith study the other day I was discussing with my leader how, I write everything down in journals, have for a long time. We began discussing the darker years of my life, and how I have very thing written down in there and still have it to this day. The thought came that I should get the books blessed so that anything dark that I was involved in would become harmless and that it wouldn't have the possibility of something that would linger over my head.

On a brighter note, I've decided to tackle a new project, one that I am keeping very secret but I am extremely excited for. It's a personal project that will involve me writing a lot of things down in one location for future reference. It sounds both incredibly boring and creepy when I say it that way, but it's going to be something magnificent if everything works out to plan.

I guess I'm slowly trying to get away from blogging and typing things up. It's certainly a lot easier to type things up, but there's something enjoyable about being able to look back on all the things that I have written down from years ago. It's quite the gift.


Saturday, February 23, 2013

Television Addiction

I'm sure everyone else has ha those moments where you get really into a tv show and so all you do is watch every single episode in rapid succession? Yup, I'm there.

In the past 3 weeks I've made it to season 5 of 7 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I think I like the strong female role model who isn't helpless an defenseless. She's not a damsel in distress and she doesn't have to wait for a guy to come and save her, she can do it all on her own.

Plus, while I never thought about it the first time around (because I never thought it needed saying) the vampires are portrayed as the bad guys. As they should be. Vampires are evil creatures who have no soul, they burst into flames if the sun hits them, and they aren't lovey dovey. They are demons.

Granted in the show there are exceptions, but they have really valid and plausible explanations! Not saying I condone them, but it's just a little better than "I love you" vampires who sparkle.

There's also the whole thing about James Marster's character of Spike, who has so many hilarious lines. I really liked Angel when I started re-watching the show, but Spike is by far the funniest character. It's hard to watch the episodes late at night and not burst out laughing.

Things are getting a little funny though, I think it's odd that in a show that's from the 90s there would be such a strong homosexual message considering how taboo it would have been for the time. That's just starting up now and it's a little weird. Okay, a lot weird. Leave it to Joss to push the envelope of the time.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013


The season of Lent is upon us once again, and it is that time of year where we put away foolish things and strive to become closer to Jesus.

All my life I've tried to do something drastic and very difficult for lent, from giving up meat (the one food group I actually like), to giving up television (which is ALWAYS on in the background, to the hardest one last year, I gave up Facebook. I realized the amount of time I wasted on Facebook just took away from my productivity, and made me generally miserable. It was an addiction that I needed to break.

While most years I try to do something different, I really think that leaving Facebook for 40 days is the most challenging thing I've ever done for lent, and I've decided that I'm going to take another running stab at it.

After Easter of last year, it was amazing how free I felt from my addiction to browsing on Facebook. I've come to the realization that it is just as bad now as it was this time last year, and that somehow I had become dependent on it once again.

It was a real learning experience for me and so I believe that it is time for me to do this challenge for a second year in a row.

As well, I want to make a promise myself to use my free time to try and at least twice a week, spend some time in discernment of what God has planned for my life. Perhaps spend more time in Adoration.

This is an opportunity to get closer to God and to take a step away from all the things I've been wasting my time with.

This should be a fun journey.


Gentlemen - Chivalry Is Not Dead

Have you ever noticed that once you really like someone, it's like every other guy out there is suddenly interested in you. It's the same for guys, that once they start liking someone, suddenly they find out all these girls like them.

Life has a funny way of working out sometimes. Suddenly all these guys in my university program have begun to act like complete gentlemen to me and it's adorable. I think it's very sweet. It's just so funny that it comes out at a time where you're emotionally attached to someone else and their attempts seem futile.

There's this one guy in my program who was an absolute gentleman today and to look at him, you would never expect it. This guy is a heavy metal guitarist, long hair, leather jacket, pretty bad ass looking. If I didn't know he was such a sweetie, I'd hate to meet him in a dark alley.

We were heading to grab dinner at the campus bar and I thought we were taking the long way around (where we didn't have to step outside) and everyone else decided going outside was a short cut. I was just going to meet them all there, but before I had a chance to say it, this young gentleman had already taken off his leather jacket and put it around my shoulders. How very sweet.

We all proceeded to have a lovely time at the bar, as people usually do, and when it came time to leave he handed me his jacket again for me to wear.

He's not my type of guy, but it just goes to show that chivalry is not dead, and sometimes you can find it in some of the most unexpected people.

Monday, February 4, 2013

We Owned The Night

"Tell me have you ever wanted someone so much it hurts. Yeah your lips keep trying to speak but you just can't find the words. I had this dream once, I held it in my arms." - Lady Antebellum, We Owned The Night.

When I first heard this song I thought it was cute, just like every Lady Antebellum song I've ever heard before. I always thought they were cute lyrics that would attract listeners to their abstract ideologies of love.

Now I realize just how true those lyrics really are.

It took me a little longer than as per usual for me to open up to my mom about the way I felt this time around because honestly I felt like an idiot! Wanting someone so much that it hurt. That just seems silly, doesn't it. I had never felt that way about anyone and so when it started happening to me, I was scared to admit it because I thought my friends would laugh.

Well my friends did laugh, but no one in my family did. It seems like every single adult that I've spoken to has been through that in their life. So guess what young people, you laugh now, but it's coming for you!

My family keeps telling me that I've finally found love, which is crazy because I barely know the guy. However it is true that I've never felt this way before. Plus, I hurt. I really, truly, physically hurt because I care about him so much.

I'm not calling it love, because honestly how can you love a person you've just met. That's like believing in love at first sight and that seems silly to me. But I have noticed that there is something remarkably different in the way that I feel for this man.

Needless to say, song lyrics are starting to stand out to me a little more these days.

Who knows what God has in store for me in the future in this. I guess we will have to wait and see.