The Life of Composition

Isn't life beautiful?

Yes while many of you will read that and thing "oh great another person who is on cloud 9 and thinks everything is peachy" well it's not entirely true. I know there's a lot of crap that goes on in a person's life, but I also know that while things are pretty tough for me right now, I'm also in the best place I've ever been my whole life.

While I can look at my life and think, there's a million things that I want to change about myself, and I'm no where near the person I want to be, and there's a million things that I'm running around and trying to keep up with, I also know that where I am right now is perfectly amazing.

To sum up things quickly, I'm in the winter term of my 3rd year of University in music. I chose this semester to fill my life with nothing but classes that I need to compose for, while I was worried that this would be a stupid mistake because I would have to be coming up with new material constantly every day and would be working non-stop I've come to realize that this is the best thing I've ever done.

School work feels like it's never ending, but at the same time I feel like for once I want and am capable of staying on top of my school work. I haven't fallen behind, I haven't felt the panic of trying to figure out what the heck I'm supposed to be doing. Yes, a few assignments were left until the last minute and I knew I would have to stay up all night to finish them, they still got done and they were done well.

This year is also the year that I'm getting the highest marks that I've gotten in all my years of University and it feels wonderful! Not a day goes by where I'm not putting my pencil to a piece of staff paper and writing music and it's one of the greatest feelings ever. I was concerned that by doing all these composition courses at once that I would discover that I didn't like spending all my time on it, but instead I've come to realize that this is exactly where I want to be in life. This is exactly what I want to be doing. Everything that I'm doing this term; composing, arranging, working as a copyist, this is exactly what I want to do for the rest of my life.

What a beautiful blessing to have something embed so deeply into your heart that you know this is what you want to do, no more wandering around aimlessly, this is it. End of story.

I truly wish this feeling upon everyone, that they discover what it is that they are meant to do. It's a beautiful feeling.

God Bless!

- Tay